Today I went to Hillsdale, NY, where the Falcon Ridge Folk Festival is being held this weekend. I went to set up camp and deliver supplies for the Activities 4 Kids tent. I realized, as I drove through the gate, that it has become my once a year home away from home. Like any other new situation, it took me a while to feel at home, but I've had that feeling for a long time now. This past week, my 20-year relationship changed to (hopefully) a friendship, and my very sweet cat companion died as I held him. It's been a hard week, and I really treasure being able to go and heal in this magical place. I will be surrounded by happy children, satisfied parents, wonderful friends who I see once a year but think of often, and most of all, the music ...
I love being surrounded by music. I love sharing music with others. I like to listen to it and play it, but mostly I live it! Music is the greatest gift that was ever given to me. It heals and energizes. It has always helped me to get through the hardest of times. Sometimes I go out late at night and find jams or song circles. Sometimes I go to sleep listening to the late night concert. Here's to a weekend of joy and nourishment!
Success is such a funny thing. Some people never recognize their success no matter how successful others see them. I have to admit, I have fallen into that category in the past. Interestingly, I have come to realize that I am successful in many areas. I guess it depends to a certain degree on our expectations for success.
Yesterday, I co-hosted a very successful Music Together event. During the event, as I looked around at all of the happy faces of both children and adults, I realized not only how successful the event was, but also how successful I felt as a center director and performer. It was heartwarming and inspiring. It felt like one big family. Everyone had fun no matter what age or from what walk of life. For me, that is what success is about. It's not about how much money I make or how "famous" I am. It's about all of those happy faces. Sometimes I bemoan not being able to go places without running into someone I know, wanting to be invisible again like in so much of my past life. Then, a small child runs up to hug me or peers at me from behind their parent's legs with delight and a touch of shyness, and I realize - this is what makes me feel so alive. This is what gets me through hard times. i love this work and hope I can do it until the day I die.
I've been singing and playing music my entire life. I have been performing since I was 16 years old. I have jammed and performed with many talented musicians and look forward to doing more. Here I am almost 60 years old and I find myself starting over yet again. I'm not just starting a new music project but a whole new phase of my life. It is exciting and terrifying. Life has been a series of adventures, and I love adventure! I hope you stay tuned as I share the twists and turns of whatever is up ahead. My son reminded me that at these crossroads, great songs are written. I hope he's right.